Letter to the editor,

Hello, I wanted to write something to get off my chest in regards to my feelings.

For a bit now I've been single, I decided it was best to take the solo road as not long ago I was in 2 relationships almost one after the other that lasted over 6 years. Due to many personal problems I decided it was time for me to stay away from love and so I did. Don't get me wrong, I am one that is all for love, I've been in that state of love where you'd do anything for that person, when you spend every chance you can trying to bring the slightest smile to their face, where everyday you wake up sporting a huge smile because you know she is doing the exact same thing. That said, I've also been in a place where your head turns to shit and you cannot feel anything you so loved to always feel. I've felt emotionless, empty, as well as nothing at all and though I hated it, I accepted it and moved on. Since withdrawing myself from the relationship world I've been "fine".

I work a lot and have a good social life so I am content with where I stand; it fits my schedule and day to day needs, so I'm happy. But at one sudden moment things change and this is while I sit in the passenger seat of a car on a rainy bleak night cruising the dark roads near a village outside London, England . With four of my close mates we put on "Sometimes" by an artist known as City And Colour. While usually the car is filled with constant chattering, this time the entire time the album is played the only noise heard is from our surroundings. I sit there and look over at the driver who is staring out at what's before him, I look into the rear view mirror and notice the other three perfectly still as if in a trance. Everyone looks relaxed, staring out the windows, deep in thought and I cannot help but think about life, more precisely love.

I sit there enjoying this music filling my soul but as I fade in and out of reality it hits me like a brick to the face that for the first time in a very long time, I feel very alone...

Signed,

Alone in England